We spoke tonight. Well it started with a text which said more-or-less why have you left me with the difficult choices. The last times we did this it always failed and I don't want it to be up to me...
It is confusing isn't it? I said I want her and want to know if she wants me. D... is not sure what she wants... but she doesn't want to make the decision. One day we may look back at these times and feel a little sadness that we missed spending these gaps together... or not.
Maybe I am missing something because if the decision was mine, we would be sitting at my table on Saturday night with a sushi dinner. Some candles. A bottle of wine. Some easy music. I would get up to change the music, come back and sneak a nibble on her neck.
Later we'd snuggle on the couch with the balance of the wine. Catch up on what's happened in the last few weeks in each others lives and then follow this up with a bubble bath in my big bath and a little more cuddling & snuggling.
On Sunday morning I might get lucky (again) and then we would walk down to Herestrau Park and see what's happening there.
And that could be the start.
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