Tonight...

I must be a lonely fuck!! I was around with friends having dinner and I was the odd one out. Clearly the last 3 years have been a complete waste of my time.

I am beginning to think that meeting the Hungarian Princess was one of the bigger mistakes in my life for I am left with more heartache and despair that I have ever felt before. yes there were moments of happiness and yes there were moments when I thought this would be forever. Now all I am left with is a hole in my chest where once I felt something else. Something I want to fell again but something that was ripped out of me so quickly I almost cant remember how it felt before...

The empty chair beside me. The empty bed when I go to sleep... These are the times I wish I could have done something different to make you mine forever...

I've had a few beers and we've had a few laughs but that does little to cheer me up. D... how do I win your heart over forever? How do I make you mine? How do I make you want me? How do I make you want me for more that a few fleeting moments?