Happy as ...

Is this maybe a spoiled brat or what? I kinda feel .... now...

So I get this message last night which says this more or less...

I read your blog. I understand how you feel (without speaking to me)... I know I've ignored you again for a few more days.. sorry but bare with me. I need a couple more days to decide if I want you or not.... You see I need more time to decide, just a few more days..... Hugz Sviti.

Or do you need more time to consider another offer?!!! That is how it sounds to me... Is it that hard to decide whether you want to be with me or not? If it is that hard, am I really worth it? Clearly not.....

Was it just a bad choice of words? Well I feel like shit after reading that sms I can tell you. "Hold on Sviti - I'm not sure if I we are a go or not but only a few more days and I'll give you an answer.... " - it almost sounds as if it was a cheerful tone and I should be happy...

FFF*****kkkk. How should I feel after that?

Should I just get on with my life and find someone who is less about them & their own little plot and a little more about we and us... I have been feeling a bit like I have my head in the guillotine and I'm waiting for the inevitable blade to chop off my head and a little part of me is trying to remain optimistic because of my survival instinct